Some of you must be really confused…
I tried to come up with a title this morning that summed up all the things that have been going on in my life.
“It’s been a long time since I came around… it’s been a long time but I’m back in town…”
Okay, enough with the GAGA lyrics.
A LOT of stuff has gone down since I last spoke to you.
First of all… I’m FINE.
I know the last blog was emotionally charged… but I’m happy to say that I may not have gotten back on the horse… but I have at least saddled it.
Wow… that was really lame.
See… I’m making jokes again! This is a good sign!
Now you all know a while ago I had this grandiose idea to do a campaign that would help fight breast cancer and share my music with everyone.
But you know what… I already share my music with the world… why do I need to take a cut of the proceeds?
This is why I’ve just decided to do this the old fashioned way, and sign up for the Susan G. Komen 3-day for the Cure and raise money for breast cancer
First, please watch my video of WHY I want to embark on this crazy journey…
and please visit my page: bit.ly/Shannon3Day
Now you all probably think I’m nuts.
Well… sorry to break it to you, but this is old news. I’ve been crazy for a while.
As you can see, I’ve installed a widget to the top right corner of my blog for anyone who would like to donate.
And believe me… I UNDERSTAND if you cannot donate. I’m a super poor twenty-something living in NYC, who can barely pay her rent.
But you CAN share it with others. 🙂
ANYTHING you can do no matter how small, will be GREATLY appreciated.
Ro was a fighter, and now it’s time for me to fight in her memory.
Speaking of fighting… I feel like this project is the first thing in a while that I can feel like I’m fighting a WINNING battle.
Lately my life has been filled with losing battles.
I chose this lifestyle. I chose this road. But it hasn’t been easy.
When I came to New York I thought my dream was to work in the music industry.
Then my dream morphed into musical theater.
Well… after I got let from my show I reevaluated a LOT.
Maybe my dream is what is has been all along… to be an original artist.
The new music I’ve been writing is HEAVILY influenced from a blues place. It’s where my heart lies.
Don’t get me wrong… I LOVE my first album… but the music I’ve written for my second album feels like HOME!
I’ve never felt so confident in my own ability as when I sit down lately and work on a song.
That’s why I’ve been posting so many things on SoundCloud… and getting a GREAT response.
And THAT is what kept me going after a REALLY SHITTY few weeks.
I had a long talk with my mentor the other night… and I said the words, “I’m tired of fighting.” I feel like I’ve been fighting to get through life since essentially 2008.
I fought to get through the grief of losing so many loved ones between 2008 and 2011.
I fought to get into Berklee.
I fought to make it through the last few months with my mother.
And then I fought to pick my life back up after she was gone.
I fought to write/produce and release my first album.
After graduation I fought to move to New York, where I THOUGHT the music industry was my journey.
I fought to get into an Off-Broadway show with essentially no acting experience.
I FOUGHT to get through the news of pre-cancerous cells residing in my body… and then have the subsequent surgery.
And now I’m fighting to figure out what my life is all about.
The breast cancer walk is a start. I know that raising money in memory of my mother is something I’m meant to do.
Writing and performing music is also helping. My struggle is how to turn my talent into a sustainable living.
If anyone has a manual for life… feel free to give it to me… NOW!
I know I’ll figure everything out… I’m just waiting for the right opportunity/ies to hit.
In better news: GAME OF THRONES IS FREAKING AWESOME! (If you are a nerd like me… you got the reference to the Battle of Blackwater Bay in my title)
I swear… my perfect idea of escapism is sitting down with one of my Game of Thrones books or watching an old episode on HBO on demand.
It helps numb the pain when I feel like shit about my life/career… which happens to be frequent lately.
So in other crappy news… I’m sick AGAIN. And it killed an audition opportunity today.
THAT BLOWS. It blows the equivalent of how many times I’ve blown my nose today… which is A LOT.
But in great news: I just finished a demo of the song “I Don’t Need No Doctor” originally by Ray Charles, but the version I did was John Mayer’s interpretation of it… then I added my own little “spices”
Funny how I just finished a demo about a “doctor” and then I get REALLY sick.
That’s pretty much how my life works.
P.S. Winter Is Coming 😉 (another GOT reference… sorry I’m not sorry)